I don't know what else to say but just purely disappointed with my own actions.. Something that I regret doing and will never ever do it again.. It just make me loses trust.. I tried pushing away and I know I failed.. These actions are just to remind me the ugly and disgusting side of people... I am at fault too and I know it.. Why did I even do it? Blame it on myself...
I knew I had held it long enough.. Long enough for me to realise that it is no longer worth it to ponder and think.. It just flowed with the stupid actions.. So yeah, just let it all out and I know that I will no longer miss what I used to miss..
Conversation with my colleague made me think a lot.. It's something that no one will know how it will happen in the future.. And to think back, I lost the trust I used to have after things happened.. I will have to make it successful...