Yup! I am not longer feeling the same way I used to feel.. Looking in a totally different perspective.. Well, it took me quite some time this time but I did it alone.. I moved on :) seeing him doesn't make me feel awkward or the i-miss-him feeling.. Nope! :) great to end my 2011 this way.. So much happier and carefree now.. Listening to his problems just make me think that he had just gotten himself into another trouble.. Haha.. And he changed.. The clique feel so much closer now.. Like what I always think, if he never take the first step, no one can communicate with him..
Really glad that the BBQ was a success.. Although with the rain, it was the time that I believed each of us enjoy being there.. :) i guess he changed for the better.. But with the problems he said, he changed for her but is it for the better? In some ways yes but on the other hand, he will lose his real self someday.. Really.. I just got this feeling.. Oh well, none of my business and not my concerns.. As long as everyone is happy and he is happy with everyone, it will be just great! :) problems should always be brought up early to prevent any more misconceptions or misunderstandings.. It seems fine on surface.. But is that really true?? Some words to consider..
As for now, I hope that I can end off my 2011 good and have and awesome start to my 2012.. This year had its ups and downs.. From school to family to work and to relationship.. But everything happen for a reason and purpose.. I learned as I grew up this year.. Many interesting and fruitful lessons.. Many smiles and tears.. But this will be my 2011.. Last year, I spent my last day of 2010 and first day of 2011 with the guy I had fallen for.. And the same guy had brought me both smiles and tears in 2011.. This marks my life in 2011.. All i could say is to be thankful for the memories as these are the things that lasts.. This last day of 2011 I am spending with people that are strangers but hopefully it will be fun! :)
I have all my new year resolutions in mind and will try my best to fulfill them.. ;) this could be my last post for 2011.. I know that i had lived my 2011 the best i could.. There are things i would like to change.. To live it all over again? I will still live it as what it was but with all the what ifs.. However, I have no regrets! And I am happy with who and what I am till now and all the things I did.. I will definitely learn from the mistakes I made but at the same time not forgetting the good things that happened too.. :)
Happy 2012 to people who have been reading my blog!! :D a new year, a whole new experience.. Write your own story, live it the way you want and with no regrets! :)