In less than 12 hours, I will be sitting for my first paper in my uni life... How scary.. English.. I cannot screw this up.. Gotta pass this, once and for all.. I don't want to take English again.. It has always been my weakest subject.. A C will be more than enough.. Really.. Just do the best I can bah.. Suddenly, I lost all my courage and confidence.. Not idea why.. Well, I got to face it somewhat, somehow..
Life now is much better I guess.. People asking me about what happened and stuff.. To some, i am willing to share.. But sometimes, I just don't feel like bringing it up to those who are not really close to me.. I am really grateful to those who listened to my story and thanks for the concern and encouragement.. I really appreciate them.. Things are just not what I wanted to be.. That's life I guess.. I have done whatever I can and just hope for the best.. However, I just know that it will hurt that bit sometimes.. I don't know why but yeah, it just hurts.. Maybe this will need more time.. Hmmm, I guess i am coping with it well so far.. Because I had not dropped any tears ever since the last time I cried about 2 months ago.. And staying strong.. I can't avoid memories playback but it is not affecting me that much.. Well, it is true that the first to move on will feel much happier.. And too bad, I am not that person who moved on first.. Still got to face the music..
Loving this song currently: The one that got away - Katy Perry :) playing exactly how I feel now but yeah.. I will move on soon enough :)