Here I am, my first day of holidays and the end of my sem 1 in NUS... Well, it just seemed like I just smuggled it through and like the efforts put into study is not there at all.. My results will reflect directly the efforts I put in... Each time I see my notes, I just feel like sleeping and no mood to study at all.. The concentration level is very low. Till an extent that I can't believe I am that bad... Oh well... This year isn't going to end of that nice I guess.. Started off my sem with a very bad start from all the emotions and problems.. Physically I am fine but I know mentally and emotionally I am strained, drained and broken... Sometimes in class, my thoughts just drifted away.. So does when I am studying.. And I really hate this side of me.. I just like stuck in the past sometimes and couldn't move on.. But my brain is forcing me to move and my heart not... As for now, I am really tired of this.. And I just wanna to concentrate on my studies.. Let this year end off like this and 2012 will be a new and refresh year for me.. A start of a new sem, a start of a new me.. Growing my hair long again... Back to the good girl I was used to be.. A girl that should just only know how to study and nth else... Ever since I cut my hair short.. Too many memories and pain sometimes that will just ruined my mind... But I just got a feeling that I will snap my hair away anytime again.. Haha.. We shall see how long I can tahan long hair... Growing it back long is not easy.. It just train my patience I guess... Uni is never easy and therefore I got to put in 10x of hard work to get what I want and to earn that results.. So yeah, now just gonna to chill for the next 5 weeks and plan my holidays well and at the same time, to get you out of my mind.. I am not missing you that often and I am just doing fine without you.. Although there are times that I just wanna to ask how are you, I just don't have the courage because of the situation we are in now.. Are we still friends? That's something that I just wanna know..