2 months passed... Stepping into the month of nov.. One year ago, these few months were the sweetest memories.. But one year later, I lose them all... One year plus ago, he got me out from the awful, shitty and painful situation and feelings.. However, one year plus later, it is him who threw me back to where I was before... Sometimes I wonder, why do this? I guess I can't blame it all on him.. I do still believe that he does want a good ending for this after all.. Who will want to go through a painful relationship? Thinking back, we both aren't officially together.. What if, we were.. What if I agreed to him.. How will things be like? Will it end off like that? Or will it be better or worse? Nobody knows... What's done it's done.. No one turn back time and live it all over again.. No matter what I say or do now, it is kinda useless.. Like how I cut my hair and fail hairstyle now.. It's over and officially over... I got to learn the damn fact.. And drill that in my mind... Time will heal my heart I hope... There are wounds that will take forever to heal... In life, there is always that someone that you will never forget even if you moved on.. So yeah... Was it a good thing? Maybe it is.. What I wish is that this friendship can last.. Even I know I will miss him at times.. I shall keep it to myself.. Life is never fair in a way or another.. And there is always a first time... Fated to stuck with that first time.. But got to learn to put it aside and move on.. Interesting of how my life changes and becomes within 2 years... Unexpected.. Thought will live my life like how a normal girl will date a guy.. I started everything from the other end and moves backwards.. Some experiences it is only once in a lifetime so I won't regret doing that.. Just find it absurd at times..
Stay in my heart as always...