Waiting for the end

i have nv expected much from anything especially from u. it just keep stirring my thoughts up and how long more can i stand? i just don't understand. and for that, seriously, i just hate myself sometimes. i nv wanted to bring up the same things and problems but u triggered it. have u ever thought about how i feel? i suppose u didn't from the things u did and the words u said. i always wanted to say but somehow it just stop there and nv came out from my mouth. i really feel like shutting myself fron everything. things will nv worked out somehow. just feel helpless.